I have looked for you all of my life.
In the faces of strangers
In the places I’ve wandered
In the things that brought me momentary joy.
In the people who snatched my trust, shattered my heart
And crushed my spirit.
Yet I continued to look.
In my thoughts and plans, silly schemes
Memories, current moments, future dreams
I saw you.
You were there
Somewhere just beyond my reach,
Yet already tucked away in my heart
Waiting to develop at the precise and intended moment.
Maybe all the pain and frustration
Loneliness and bad decisions
Were just a prelude to the current respite I feel.
In time, I will know if this is different
If this is real and permanent
Or just more of the same old mundane
I know the answer.